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If there was a year who really trolled me (or is trolling me) like its bitch, its gotta be 2024. Even before it started I already ruled it out. Told the world I wanted it to be over with (see 2023: In Retrospect article). So did 2024 hear me say that out loud and did not appreciate my attempt to skip him on my timeline? Apparently so. Just when I was trying to keep everything on the down low-- staying out of social media, keeping expenses to a minimal, putting my personal life in the backseat-- it hits me with a curve ball and now my trajectory has been definitely skewed. Not in a bad way, in fact it’s the exact opposite, and not that I'm complaining either. I am thankful because I’m honestly blessed more than I deserved. I was sent a person to tame me, to interest me, to reinvent me. So now I bend the knee to 2024. You are such a prick but I appreciate you nevertheless!
Let’s be clear about something, love doesn’t win all the time. At least that's how I see it (agree to disagree??) But when it does, then you are certainly endowed. I said this before. I could not afford a relationship right now and I am willing to wait it out until next year. It's cool. I can be patient that way. I am patient. I'm broke so there's no way it's gonna progress even if love does happen, you know what I'm saying? Or so I thought. So what if it happens, like that trite saying, when you least expected it? Would you open the doors and let it in? In the words of a true hopeless romantic (see Logic vs Feelings article), “Hell yeah you should!” Funny though how you have no clue who gets sent your way. It could be as whimsy as a high school transfer student, as complicated as your ex-wife's cousin (haha) or someone random from the Bumble dating app. Heck it could be a former co-worker you never really paid attention to back then. Who knows really??
I did say her name was Anna right? (see Anna: Reinvented article) Personally, I have not seen her for more than 20 years since we were still co-workers. And during that stint, I have probably only seen her twice in the office. She said she have never seen me at all but know me for some reason (now that doesn’t add up.. hmm..) So aside from the few FaceTime calls we did, in essence, we've never really met met. Fast forward a few weeks later, there she was, picking me up at the airport and essentially sealing the first and ever meeting between two former office mates, who are banking on the progressing chats they had for a few short months to turn into their “happily ever after”. What an awkward moment!!! From my perspective it was a bit stiff (for lack of a better term) but she seemed very collected on her end. I was more weary of her driving, to be honest, than anything else. So I feel like I couldn't hide the concerned look in my face. As the day progresses I started to warm up to her presence. I realized after all the video calls we've done, that I really love the way she laughs. Not her smile (which is still a killer) nor the tone of the actual laugh but the look on her when she displays her laughter. I find her the prettiest in those moments and seeing it in person did ease my mind. But at the end of Day 1, it seemed like we would end up in doom. I couldn't make out her body language. She seemed aloof and felt like she was disengaged. It felt like a total failure. What a tragedy if the very reason for my trip, after a 13-year long abstinence, ends on the day of the meet, right? But no harm, no foul they say. At this stage, we weren’t entirely invested yet so let’s just call this a wrap shall we?? She moves on with her daily routine and forget we ever had potential, and I just enjoy my trip with family and friends. Still not a shabby deal. So Day 2 I was set. She already knew there was something off with the exchange of messages and the original plan to hear mass together that day was nixed. We didn’t meet up and I already planned Day 3 to clear the air with her once and for all. Welp, the air was cleared alright. We talked it out (you know like adults do) and immediately knew that what we had going was absolutely worth the shot. And the next two weeks, as they say, was history.
Anna hates this. This particular article you are reading right now. She is very private, a bit on the shy side and certainly uncomfortable with the story-telling, the professing of our love in the Net. I like this about her. Imma bring her out of her shell a bit and she could drag me back down into doing any more crazy stuff. She said I should not give up too easily and that if I’m patient enough, I would never notice how time would fly by and that everything will be as we wanted it to be. She sounds so positive all the time and I’m unexplainably drawn to her. There is also a certain naivety in her that I find so endearing. She even found us the perfect song and that moment she shared it to me is when, cheesy as this may sound, I knew she was a keeper. The two weeks that we were together felt long and short at the same time. Long because time is frozen when I’m with her and short because just like that we were once again oceans apart. There’s this mystery though in our relationship that I could not describe. That the wait just feels right. That her love feels right. Cannot absolutely wait to see her here in the next few months. Hope she is the last or else Dad’s gonna kill me for sure haha!
She my end game 2024, now what??
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